Before the New Year, Team Marie Claire faced their fears and did what they thought was impossible for the longest time. Read about their experiences before, during and after , maybe you too will get inspired to do that one thing you’ve been putting off forever!
“I Conquered My Fear of Heights”
Clara Siew, Beauty Writer
I’ve always been afraid of heights. I don’t know what triggered it, but a huge part of the fear is brought about by the thought of falling and dying. I can’t climb up or down a steep and narrow flight of stairs without getting a panic attack or freaking out like a mad woman.
I can’t even climb down the steps of Batu Caves without shaking and trembling like a leaf the entire time. I also went up to the roof of Kellie’s Castle in Ipoh recently (where there were no safety railings of any kind), and I couldn’t even bring myself to stand up because I was too overwhelmed by the fear of tripping and falling off the sides. I even used to have dreams of falling off a balcony, and I’d wake up with my feet in the air and this sinking feeling like I was actually falling down in real life.
This year in particular, I’ve been trying to confront my fears. After being encouraged by my colleagues, we decided that I would try rock climbing—without a safety harness. The date was set and I committed to it—no turning back now! As we reached Xero Gravity, I felt so nervous, but was at the same time pretty excited at the thought of finally overcoming this fear once and for all.
I started by practising my footing, but whenever I got to the top (without looking down), I would go into panic mode and refused to fall onto the cushiony mattress below. After a few tries, and much persuasion and reassurance by Pam and Daphne that I would be alright, I decided to go for it. As I reached the top, I decided to close my eyes tight, and in doing so, slammed my door shut in fear’s face. I released my grip on the rocks and let myself fall. It was a quick fall (because it wasn’t a very high wall), but that felt like a long time to me. In that brief moment, I felt a leap in my chest, and my mind was clear.
I landed on my back, and the thick padding helped to cushion my fall. It was utterly painless, and I opened my eyes, taking a few seconds to gather my thoughts. As I lay there, I looked up at the wall and felt proud of this little achievement. Even though it was just the beginner’s wall, it was a big step in the right direction for me. Here’s to a year of confronting fears, and conquering them all one step at a time!